As I Sit Here & Think-

I see many, many things that cross my mind.
For one thing, girls don't act the way they supposed to act anymore. Why? Cause they wanna grow up too quickly. They dress up a certain way, talk a certain way, move in a certain way. STOP. Please. You sending off a HORRIBLE example for everybody. No one truly cares about how old you think you are. Your not grown up! ACT YOUR AGE. Your fucking fifteen & yet you wanna act like you twenty-one for some shit. But for one thing, I'm glad that your the way you are. Cause it shows me that I am for sure, BETTER than you. I have a better future, career & life.
Another, I feel like I'm not really close to anyone no more. A loner. I only talk to guys now, but they don't give me that feeling of true friendship you know? All of my closest friends go to different schools now, & I don't feel as close to them anymore. & all the ones that I used to be close with, aren't there anymore. What is wrong with me?
& I feel your pain Mary, I really do. I was about to cry right after Royse City, but I don't know. After the games, I try to cheer up! Be happy. The game just passed & I learn to let go. But I guess it's not really enough huh? Thanks for trying hard every game Mary, Monica too (: I really appreciate the hard work you guys put in there. I just hope I can make it easier on you two when I play.
I feel like a bad girlfriend. I talk to a lot of guys lately, & not enough girls. & one of them keeps touching me >:O But I still hang with him cause he's a friend. It's as bad as it sounds doesn't it? Man I feel like a cheater :[ I guess I just have a feeling of insecurity. I don't know. But I promise you, nothing is ever gonna get in between of me & you<3.
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