First Sophmore Day (:

was kinda fun (: well, i had to make it fun. Most of my classes were QUIET. ugh. It's annoying. I hate it when people are quiet man. But! Already, I got in trouble the first day haha! Coach Hoebag & Coach Sibley worked right next to each other on A3, & she comes in & already bitches at me. "Yolanda! What are you doing? Is that how you sit in a desk? Don't make me run you for that." FUCK DAMN. But the rest of the day was alright (: I didn't get to see some people like I wanted< / 3 But I will one day soon! Volleyball today was like 2 a-days man. We ran like a shit load! I fucking hated it. My legs are gonna be SUPER sore tomorrow. I barely have anybody in C lunch man. I only have Teenahh & Billa Bong! (: Selina! We will see each other tomorrow for sure!<3

An Empty Feeling.

I don't even feel like we're together anymore. You get mad over the littlest things ever! & it's not even a big deal. You make me feel like I always gotta change something about myself to keep you. Become the "image" that you want to see. Well I am not what you want me to be. I don't say nothing about you at all, I don't ask you to change nothing about yourself. But you, oh you. You ask for a lot. The only thing that I ever asked you to do was choose your words wisely when your talking to me. But still, you couldn't do that for me. I feel like I'm losing myself to keep up with you. Now I don't even know what I should do with you. I want to stay together, but then I don't. When we're together, everything seems into place. When we're not, when we're talking on aim, we argue like it's nothing. & when you threatened me with a break up, I really felt like I did want to break up. But then, again, I don't want to. I really don't want to do something that I might regret. I don't wanna sit around & wonder what's good with you. Why do you gotta make things difficult for me?

Careful Of What You Say-

cause it can come out the way you didn't want it. You know, when we fight, you don't choose your words wisely. You say the most hurtful words ever, but I know that you don't mean it the way it came out. You can't just find the right words. & whenever it comes to a difficult time, you don't wanna talk about it anymore. I try not to make it difficult at all. But you always think I do. Give me a straight answer & I'll simply reply with my honest answer. But whatever. Do what you do. Talk to me when you actually want to talk to me.

Fun Fun Day :D

It all started with volleyball (: I had it with my FAVORITE vball coach ever! She wasn't that hard on us today. Unlike Coach Hoebag. I hate her. ANYWAYS, then me & Destiny went back to my place where i cooked, fried rice! It was so yummy (: Then when we was heading up to the mall, me & Destiny was singing to "You Belong With Me" by Taylor Swift, & then we see this girl whose all singing in her car dancing to this one song. So we're all like, "What is she listening to?" We sat there in the car trying to read her lips. & GUESS WHAT? She was listening to the EXACT same song as us! It was so HILARIOUS! The way she was dancing while driving. So funny (: Then we met up with Jenny & Ashley & Clay & shopped around a whole lot! I got all these new clothes (: & the salespeople are so fun to mess with (: They are COOL. Clay just loves making fun of me though. >:[ & the last store we went to was Windsor. I found this pretty ass dress! But it's $140 man. It was SO PERFECT! Exactly what I wanted for homecoming. Later when Clay was taking us home, he took us to the wrong side of the mall to get to his car. -___________-" I told him it was this one way, & he was all like, "Noo it's not." So we spent like, 10-15 minutes trying to stop cars to tell us where was Blue Garage was. It turned out to be the direction I pointed at >:[ Ugh, stupid Clay. & now I am at home. Good day, am I right? (:

Grow The Fuck Up?

Shit. I didn't give you a fucking attitude. I simply showed you a straight face. I'm not only fucking mad over the room shit, alright? I'm fucking pissed about how our parents fucking put you first. They give you whatever you want. Whenever you ask for something, they just give it to you like nothing. & I just sit here waiting & working my ass off for what I WANT. All you ever do is just go out & play while I'm here cleaning up all your fucking shit. Why? Cause Mommie & Daddy asked me too. I do things to make them happy. & all you can tell me is to "Grow the fuck up?" Bitch please. You're the one who needs to grow the fuck up. Can you at fucking least try & show some sympathy for our parents? You give back NOTHING. You always expect them to be there for you when you fall, whenever you need something, they get it for you. Just cause your fucking 18, it doesn't mean your all grown up. NO IT DOESN'T. It's just a number alright? You have to GROW UP to meet that level. Talking about how I'm irresponsible, & how I need to grow up. Bitch, think before you talk. You're way worse than I am. Think before you do something. I learn from your mistakes. GROW THE FUCK UP FOR ONCE.

Your So Effin Selfish.

Your my sister, no matter what happens, I am forced to love you. Cause your always there. But most of the time, all I ever hear is shit about you. "I wasn't home to make a mess, you clean it. Please clean this for me. I'm so stressed, please do this." Etc. You may not notice it, but our parents always put you first. They say they love us equally, which I believe. But when it comes to our needs [clothes, food & shit.] they always put YOU first. When ever I need money to buy more clothes, you already got to them. You ask them for money on things that you DON'T need. & when I need something, I can't get it. You know why? Cause YOU got to them, leaving me to wait & wait. Then I never get it. When we moved in this house at first, your current room was supposed to be MY ROOM. But since you are my sister, I gave it to you. Being a good sister. & now when we're switching the rooms around, Mommie & Daddie says that I get the Master room. Once you heard about that, you COMPLAINED & made them give you the Master room. Why? Cause THEY ALWAYS PUT YOU FIRST. They always worry about YOU the most. Whatever you want, they go & get it for you no matter what they had to do. Even if they know that they can't afford it before paying the bills for the house. They still get it for you. Why don't you do them a favor & give something back in return?

Coach Hoebag.

You seriously piss me off. I didn't do much today & you go & yell in my face. NO NEED TOO. No one on our JV team likes you. You can't teach for shit! Telling me to do this & that. No. Just stop. I know what I'm meant to do in this sport. Don't try to tell me what I can or can't do. The way you teach is bullshit. No one really tries to play the way you want, cause the way you want doesn't work. You never really help us. You just either sit on the sidelines & watch, or you just stand in the middle of the court to be in our way. AND YOU! The one that was barely here on tryout days. I know your a good player, but you talk a lot. I say something that wasn't even mean or some shit. & yet, you bitch at my face, "You know what shut up," "Yolanda get out of your ass" & blah blah blah. BITCH. I didn't say no fucking shit to your face. I don't tell you what to do, so I suggest you do the same. I do as I please alright? Quit acting like your the leader on this team, cause your not! Either choose your words wisely around me, or just STFU. Cause I ain't gonna just hold back & say nothing no more. I am tired of this shit. Do me a favor, if you don't have anything nice to say, just don't talk to me at all. Back the fuck off alright?

A Snap Back To Reality.

We all know that once we enter High School, that everything will change right? For some weird reason, I felt like I didn't change a bit. But now when I think about it, I did change. A lot! I became the person that I told myself that I will never be. No matter how hard I can try on anything, I will always think of myself as a failure. Because I can never truly live up to the things I want to live up to. I notice that once I meet new people, I can't really keep the close ones with meat all times. There's always someone whose being pushed back. One that is just standing in the dark, or just walking away. I feel like, I'm not myself anymore. Like, I don't even know myself anymore.

Alrighty now, no more sad words. The good news is, me & Jim are back together!<3 & I totally miss Johnny Phan so much! Yogen Fruz is not good. It's just like, NASTYY. G.I JOE is awesome! Go watch it! Mhmmm, Channing Tatum!<3 He is so effin HOT! With his shirt off & everything. Y U M ! <3

I Feel Like I'm Dying.

I swear! Ugh. I can't eat whatever I want! It's killing me slowly :[ I see all these pretty yummy food, & I get angry cause I can't eat it! >:O I think I'm on a diet :[ Diets are just plain sad!

First Day.

OMG, dangg, I feel like a failure :[ I did worse than last year on the first day! I had to sit out for a little bit. I think it was like an hour? Ugh. Stupid doctor. Told me to drink a protein shake before i go. Bitch! It made me throw up yellow water! Anyways, it was pretty fun on the second half. I really hope that it won't be as hard the rest of the days. One down! Six more to go. :[ Peter is soo awesome to let me come over twice today! (:

Memo for the rest of 2-a-days, eat fruits in the morning!

Dustin's birthday dinner today! (: Can't eat shit. I'm afraid that it'll make me slow tomorrow. -___________-"

:D

today was one of the most fun day ever (: well, not really (: i got to hang out with kevin&kenneth, & thanh, & this two year old girl named NGHI, & Jim! (: kenneth is actually a good driver (: good good day (: