Depression.

It's really sad isn't it? I really feel like I hit it already. & why's that? Who knows. Like I said earlier, you give no effort. & I still believe you still won't. Because you stick to what you think is right & stupid. It gets to me all the time because I feel like I've been trying to change you, but also I tried to make you a better person. A person looking forward to the future, someone who keeps trying to make a better life, someone who realizes their mistake & learn how to fix it. I guess it was just wrong to ever think of something like that.

Somehow, I felt like I knew this was coming. But I still catch myself asking, asking why. Why do I feel so hurt on the inside, but it just doesn't show at all? I can be happy with my friends, smiling, laughing, & enjoying myself. But I know deep down, I'm not really feeling that way. I guess it was just a state of depression.

Kristina, do you really think so? I really hope your right. & thanks for being there<3 I really believe that your a true friend to me. & I hope you'll forever be there for me.<3