Weed.

I know that a whole bunch of kids are doing weed. But I never noticed how far it got to kids who we used to call friends. Kids who are in middle school, in ELEMENTARY school. What has happened to the world? People who I used to call friends, or people who I call friends now, are smoking weed. Why? Cause they like to call it cool, relaxing, fun, A NEED. No. You don't need it. You can do way better than that. I know you can. Quit giving in to pier pressure! It's not as awesome as you think anymore. Why waste time on getting high and doing nothing? You can find other stuff that is totally & way better than that. A whole lot funner. If you wanna stop so bad, quit wishing, & actually go & do it.

9:46 pm.

Grounded.

Ugh, soo recently I got in trouble. So the outcome was that I had to stay home for a COMPLETE week. & it's already been one day. I feel sick already :[ I hate the feeling of being at home. I'm not used to it! I wanna go out! >:O somebody come over? (:

3:10 pm.

Procrastinating & Anger

Alright so recently, I signed up for Speech Class. & already, we had so many homework. Ugh, I hate my teacher. He never stops staring either! I haven't even started on any yet! & when my mom found out that I have homework, my computer is messed up. & what do I get out of that? Her bitching in my face. Everytime she bitches in my face, I always glare at her. But it gets SO ANNOYING on how she gets all mad & says things like, "You wanna hit me? Hit me!" Blah blah blah. SHITT. STFU! Man, if she knew me, she would know I wouldn't hit her cause that's not right. It just shows that I have no respect for her, neither do I love her. I know better than to hit my own mother. But she thinks I'ma hit her all the time. Why? Cause I hit my own sister. Sister's are different. Which is why she doesn't understand. Yesterday my sister & I had a talk about my mother. & it's probably the saddest thing that I ever heard of my mom. & yet I try to maker her as happy as possible. But she never tries to make me happy as much as I try for her. My mom will never understand cause she's too afraid of me growing up & moving away from her. Ugh, it bothers me so.

9:00 pm.

Friends Forever?

Now we all know the term, "friends forever," right? For some reason, I don't think it applies as much as people would try to say & keep. As much as I wanna stay close to that one friend, the more I feel different from them. We go to different schools, we both hang out with two COMPLETELY different groups of people, & we're always busy. You will always be close to me in my heart, but at times, I just feel like I'm not as important as I thought I should be. You made that choice long ago, & that is probably the reason why we're not as close anymore. But we're only human. No one is perfect. & I can't blame you for the choice you made. It's totally up to you, & it bothers me so much because it's not the choice I wanted you to choose. No matter how hard I try, I can't get as close to you like how I use to. I wish we could go back in time to relive those moments where we were so close to each other. I guess that's what high school does to people. It shows us that we will change once high school has started, & where we stand in our relationship. I just want us to connect like how we used to.

9:54 pm.

Grammar.

Do you know what bothers me the most over the internet? GRAMMAR. I hate it when people try to type like, "duh, da, tuh-ime, etc" stuff like that. It's just really stupid & lame. NO ONE really is really gonna take time to notice your typing! It doesn't make you cool or whatsoever. It makes no differences in the world. Just stop it >:P

7:30 pm

Eight Months

Happy Eight Months Baby<3 & Happy Birthday Kevin! Alrighty then, soo today is our eight months<3 and it's supposed to be a WONDERFUL day ever. Apparently, not really. First off, I took a bus to see the boyfriend<3. TWO HOURS to get there. On the way to his place, i fucking got my wallet stolen. Fucking stupid bitchh. Ugh. RUINED my day. I wasn;t as mad as I should've been though. It was a pretty one too! I would show a picture, BUT. They don't have it up on Spencersonline.com. Soo I will describe it! Okayy, soo it's one of those hardcovered wallets that are rectangle, & it had cushion on the sides (: The whole wallet was BLACK & had pretty white stars all over it! It fucking costed me $17! & I had five bucks in there, & a very IMPORTANTE note in there. The very first note ever that the boyfriend had ever wrote to anybody. He wrote it to me. I kept it for eight straight months. Now it's gone :[ So yeahh, when I got to Jim's place, we ended up going swimming at Holford. Which was like, SUPER crowded. I had to borrow David's sister;s bathing suit. Then went back to the boyfriend's house to shower & eat. When we was about to go home, the freaking huge tornado was coming! So I had to stay there for a while, waiting for it to calm down soo we can get on the road. Now I am at home typing up this blog (: Nice day huh? Yeahh. I just LOVE it. -___________-" Well I'm off to do better things. Good Night!

8:34 pm.

Inspiration

Soo, as I write my first blog, I think of Mary & Kristina. Why? Cause I got this blogger thingy-ma-jigg from them. Then I think, wow, I have never met anyone like them. Throughout my Freshman year, they were always there & anytime when I need someone to tell me the truth, I had them to tell me straight through with no problems. I never realize how much people care soo much for me. I mean, of course there's always someone whose gonna care for someone, but I never thought that it would come for them<3. It's gonna be soo sad when we all split up next year. Well, just one of us. But still, our bond will forever always, be there forever&ever<3

10:10 pm.