Another "who am I"

I don't know myself anymore. I don't even feel like myself. I feel like someone who just tries to make everybody happy in some way. Ne'er thinking about myself, then losing myself in the end. I'm on the outside looking in. The friends I now call, they're not my friends. They're my boyfriends. I'm not close to anybody at all. All my friends have gone away and found ones who can stick to them. I don't have any at all. There is seriously something wrong with me. I can't keep a friend who anstick by my at all times. Cause they all found better. I don't the things I love because I love them. But does that make others think that I only care for myself? Selfish. Getting things my way, gettig what I want. I always thought that I always considered others first when they need me, but today I realized that i am nowhere near. I'm farther than where I thought I was.